Time. They say it is the greatest healer, and it is true.
While I still love Mel as much as ever and always will, the savage pain from her passing is slowly evaporating. There are times when I miss her awfully, and a bit of that will always linger, that is natural.
But most often now, when I think of her, it is with a sense of gratitude and wonder, that this lovely woman came into my life and turned it upside down and helped me grow closer to the man that I want to be. I am honoured that I was able to support her, and help her on her path as she helped me on mine. That gift was a huge sacrifice, but now it is time for me to recover and continue living my life. There is no point in just existing, that is a waste of time on this planet.
And I can still feel the good effects of her love. Having someone so lovely affirm and accept completely who I was, was a gift to me that built me up and will always be with me.
So, I am starting to feel myself again, which is good news indeed. And starting to see life again for the adventure which it is, which is exactly what she would have wanted.