Friday evening, and ahead of me lies the promise of some wonderful free time. I was telling someone how excited I was at the prospect of getting some sleep, and they said that was a bad sign. I tried to explain to them how precious a commodity sleep had become, and then I just never managed to get around to it. It is so hard to lead a balanced life. Your career takes the bulk of it, and then if you try to fit in exercise and some creative pursuits, there is not much left!
Going to our seaside apartment, I know how refreshing it will be to just walk along the coast and get some sea air. I remember being stuck in London a while back, and thinking of just that. My feeling at the time was that if a man can sit by the sea and watch the waves and the moon, he can not have any real problems. And in a way, I still feel that way.
This human life is such an interesting experience. Especially as your understanding of it grows, and your perception changes to more of an observer status. You watch this tapestry unfold before you, like a drama with a hidden central theme, and even your own actions become something to observe and wonder about and reflect on.
You start seeing how different drives motivate you, without it always being the best course of action. And start trying to distance yourself from these drives, and act according to what is really best for you. That is why I have so little patience with habits like cigarette smoking. Although, like everyone, I have my own bad habits.
Sometimes I get glimpses of what my life could develop into, even in this human life. One should have that focus in mind to keep your life in the right direction. I suppose that is why quiet time is so important. In meditation and reflection, we still our mind and the finer concepts filter down into our consciousness, which is cleared of the daily buzz and noise. It is these concepts, which we pay the least attention to, that should form the foundations of our lives.